this Morning I Cried...

A poem for Ethan.


This morning as I look upon you,
I do not look with sadness but with overwhelming joy.
Despite this I cry.

This morning as I look, you glance back at me,
I see into you, and know that you see back into me.
I see the strength we give each other.
Despite this I cry.

This morning as I look upon you, I marvel,
what a curious boy you are, what an innocent face you have,
what a love our family will share.
Despite this I cry.

This morning as I look upon you, I laugh,
the smiles and giggles we have shared,
I remember them all, and I know this is only the beginning,
Despite this I cry.

This morning as I look, I lay a hand upon you,
you look at me, we don't speak, we simply smile.
Because of this I cry.

I don't cry out of worry, fear, sadness, despair, uncertainty.
I don't cry for the future, or for the hardships in our past.
As I look upon you again, you reach out for a toy,
I do not look with sadness but with overwhelming joy.
Because of this, Ethan, my son, I will not cry.

With all the love a parent can give,
Your Father